* Welcome *
to the chronicles of event that happened in my life
filled with challenges
filled with suprises
filled with expectations
filled with fantasies
Friday, October 21, 2005
* I Will *
I will.....
# always cherished every moment that we have shared together
# preserve those memory in a special place in my heart
# enjoy and treasure every moment that we will have in the future
# protect our friendship
# treat you as a special friend in my life
# wish you happiness
# give you tips to deal with girls when you are dumbfounded
# continue to give you strength when you needed it
# help to pray when you are seeking His guidance
# give you advise and share my thought when you are in a dilemma
# analyse your options when u ask me t0
# lend you a shoulder to lean on when u needed it
# aid you in your process of self-development when you need some pointers
{Well, I am not that great in this as well, still struggling in fact, but just giving you another point of view in life,mybe :) Remember? We are learning together.}
# support you and wish you success in life
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
Thank you!!
I am glad that at last, u tell me the truth.Your reply, no doubt enhanced my confidence.
I am really flattered!
:)
You gave me a sense of self-worthiness.
You make me realised that I am special.
And more importantly, you gave me an answer.
Thank you.
Saturday, October 15, 2005
??the question??
actually, having a QUESTION in my mind for 3 years is really a great burden to carry all this while..
feeling TIRED at last, and eager for an answer..
i finally ASKED him......
u see, i had a crushed for this guy for 3 years, but never been brave enuv to ask the QUESTION!
but i'm feeling exceptionally strange cos i am sure that i got his MESSAGE somewhere along the line.
blame myself for not being courages and frank enuv everytime when i FACED him.
the problem is, everytime i saw him, the question will just POP up in my mind and keep lingering for days..
well, i should name it the NEVER-ENDING torture!!
and that day, i know i can't continue to endure the pain and suffering all this while any longer, i finally ASKED him!!!
nevermind about the ANSWER cos it is not that important anymore.
but WHY should i asked if that is the case??
mayb i just ask for the SAKE of asking??
well, i do not know, but after asking that question, i really felt that the BURDEN that i have been carrying for years have been finally LIFTED up!!
at last, i am FREE!!!
free from this burden and DOUBT!!
FOOH!! that is how i am feeling now
:)
Thursday, October 13, 2005
BEEE ZZ...
have been quite occupied lately but nonetheless, this week have been a wonderful week. after returning back to work (after my dengue attack), a lot of changes took place. new procedure, new policies, new updates and new house officer as well..this time round, my new house officers are all very friendly and cooperatives. they are very obedient as well.. in fact, it is all solely depend on luck. sometimes, they r good but sometimes, u can get a very lazy and blur blur one.. sigh... this is life ne, nothing is perfect or may b i can say, never can be perfect very long.. there will be one day that they will just leave our ward after their training and proceed to another ward..life is like that ma..hor??!!
another happy moment to share....
my manager just praised me being able to stay calm during an emergency. actually, that day when i am in-charge, one of my patient turn bad and needed to be sent to hi-dependency ward. but before that, there are few orders to carried from the consultant in-charge. so i have to stop doing everything that i have in hand and attend to the specific patient. no doubt, it is very stressful because with my manager presence, it means that she will be evaluating me at the same time. luckily the situation is all in control and bout 1 hr later, we successfully sent the patient down...fuuuhhhh.. what a relief. there after, i continue my work and she approached me saying that i did 'grow up' ...
:) :) :) :) :) :)
Saturday, October 01, 2005
The waiting
I was afraid that I will miss the appointment..I looked at the clock and it shows 1150. Well, just on time! HappilyI walked in and took a Q-number expecting that I will be called soon since my appointment for blood taking will be at 1200hrs. Settled myself on one of the seat available at the waiting area in front of reception area.
While waiting, I took out my story book and read. Panic attack comes when the clock shows 1230 and it's not my turn yet. Oh dear, did I miss the appointment?!! Anxiously, I walked to the reception area and make an enquiry.
"Your number have not been called, just wait for your number to be called twice, for your registration and blood taking." said the receptionist. After being reassured. I obediently went back to my seat and continued my reading. Haha! Clever me, luckily I brought a story book with me or esle I will die of boredom!
By the time my number was called for registration and blood taking, the clock shows 1315 and I am already half way through my story book. Oooppsss.. I should have bring another story book with me, the laboratorist said my blood test result will not be ready in another 2 hrs time. Nevermind, just be as patient as posibble, the blood test result will soon come out. Wtithin the next half an hour, I 'gulped' down the whole story book.
Then the never-ending waiting began. Looked for something to read (failed). Search for some food, but the nearest canteen/ food court will be 20minutes walk (gave up). Went out to the nearest vending machine and bought a drink to cool myself down. I seem to be increasingly impatient. Sigh!!
Feeling restless and hopeless, I walked about at the waiting area. I sensed that my patience no longer can uphold myself. When I was about to approach the receptionist to urge her to speed up the process, I saw a glimpse of hope. On the left corner of the waiting room, I saw two colourful magazine lying motionless on the trolley, cover facing down.
*flip flip*
Huuray!!!It' s my favourite mag!!! I am overjoyed to found such a 'treasure'. For the rest of the waiting hours, I indulged myself in my new-found-treasure. At last, I survived through the 'excruciating' waiting...
:)