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to the chronicles of event that happened in my life
filled with challenges
filled with suprises
filled with expectations
filled with fantasies
to the chronicles of event that happened in my life
filled with challenges
filled with suprises
filled with expectations
filled with fantasies
Took it at a harbour, full of private ferries and yatches. This photo remind me of sceneries from overseas. Actually, not bad ma, Malaysia also have very beautiful spots... hahah
The art of batik.
Batik is a popular traditional industry in Langkawi. This art requires a lot of skills in drawing, coloring and techniques. A hand-drawn batik can cost anything from RM50 to few thousands ringgit depending on the pattern and material of the batik.
Calm and soothing. This is a scenery in a tourist park. Its a perfect place for the tourists to laze around and feel the strong sun shine of the day. In addition, there are shops that sell local products and souvenirs, just nice for tourists to grab something special back to their own country :)
just recovered from my guiltiness
and right afterthat..
was my appraisal form filling time
frankly speaking,
i really need time to recompose myself after all this incident thingy
when our supervisor pass us the stack of paper,
telling us to rate ourself on our duty,
and have to return that stack of forms to her tommorrow,
i was really stunned,
at that point of time,
the only thing that i was thinking
"3 incident in 6 months"
careless mistakes here and there..
hmm..
my head was throbbing hard
my heart felt a sharp pinch of pain
how am i able to rate myself???
i stare blankly at the appraisal forms..
decide to chuck it aside 1st...
next step:
approached my manager
told her that i need time to get over my mistakes..
and then rate myself,
i promised to leave the forms for her in 2 days time
i then concentrate on my duty
praying hard not to make any more mistakes
practically, after all the incidents,
i cannot even trust myself..
i was always under a lot of stress..
trying real hard not to make anymore mistakes..
i really couldn't 4give myself if i happen to make another mistake!!!
arrgghhh....
after 2 days of recomposing,
i finally filled up my appraisal forms....
sigh....
this few days,
god have been very good to me..
giving me opportunity to work with super super nice colleagues
at least, working with them,
i feel more comfortable and supported..
cannot...........
............cannot...
cannot.............
...................cannot...
forgive myself liao...
arrgghhh.....
3 mistakes in 6 months!!
it is simply too much for me to bear...
i need a time out!!!!!
ppleazzz!!!!
*pull hairs!!*
work is so challenging!!!
same shift with a new staff nurse.
partnering her is so challeging!
dunno when things will crop up..
i just got to know that one of my staff unluckily have two incident reports on one day..
which is very stressful and taxing!!!!
when i am on duty,
i really have to make sure that things is properly done
i just recover from 2 incident reports last year
and i do not wish to have one so soon..
work have been very scary lately..
with unstable staffs (like myself),
with short of staff,
with impossible request from patients and manager..
sigh..
i really wonder when will things be better
but it doesn't seem so soon ler..
i just dun have a choice...
guess i have no say on the assignment
but the day have been really stressful and challenging
thanks to my senior staff for the 'stimulation'
what a day!!
after the end of the day,
i will not know whether i would receive any phone call from my ward stating that particular things have not been done yet..
sigh..
when u r partnering a junior-than-you staff,
every responsibilities will fall on you eventhou that is not a part from your job routine!!
flashback # 19 months back:
1st passed out as a staff nurse
had a very sad beginning of my career..
being bullied by senior staff..
can do nothing but to keep quiet cos even my nurse manager will only listen to the senior staff..
nobody to guide you,
nobody to support you,
when things so wrong,i were to blame
cos i am new, i am not oriented,
not careful
not knowing the ward culture!!!
but as time goes by,
i got used to it,
adapting to the culture,
harmonizes with the staff,
modify myself,
fit into environment.....
and now, when the new staff come,
i always tell them,
it is ok to be new, it is ok to ask..
it is ok to realised your mistakes
but the most important things is:
not to repeat the same mistakes ever again.....
learn from your lesson!!
and now,
i know how stressful the senior staff was 19 months ago
when i was a junior then...
guess this is just circle of life...
:)
dec:busy mode
arrangging for fren coming to sgp mode
exciting mode
bonus pay mode
christmas mode!!
jan: happy new year mood
regretful dec mood thus
new resolutions mood
happy holiday mood (langkawi)
feb:busy mood
happy chinese lunar new yearmood
exciting to meet *old old* frens mood
reach sgp in sad mood (bidding goodbye to kl frens)
busy working mood
busy meeting with frens mood
went to a fren wedding and be her JIE MEI
so busy and tired.. (will talk more bout the wedding next time)
mar: busy mode
boring mode
upset mood
sien mood...
hope: will get better or higher on my roller coaster soon....
A lot of things have been happening around lately..
i have not been updating my blog for some time..
my immediate emotion now: bored and upset
y?
i dunno..
things have been pretty boring especially my relatioship..
nothing great.. mayb it is bcos of my tiredness..
i still remember, we used to just sit at my room and watch tv last time
sometimes, we will sleep in the room...
things have been pretty relax then..
but since my landlady barred my bf from coming in the house cos she had a pregnant relatives living in the same house....
things have been very difficult for me..
whenever i wanted to meet my bf, we have to meet outside.. there is no more relax moment where we can just sit and accompany each other without saying anything.. we have to constantly searching for a place to laze around... shopping, eating, walking around doing nothing, sitting in the library, cycling... u name it, we have done it all but i still feel boring....sometimes i even feel that i do not have any new topics to talk to him...
mayb it is becos of the constant need to search for a new place..i felt very tired and boring... i can't take it anymore.. on this hand, i am tired of working and going out, i really need rest, but on the other hand, my bf is asking me out, wanted to meet me... if i turn him down, i feel very bad as well...
it have been a very long time since i can really laze at home the whole day, doing nothing, watching tv and sleep whenever i want. i think i really lack of rest..
moreover, i seems to always make careless mistake in my work
i miss something again yest nite.. well, i dunno whether i am a perfectionist or wat, but i always will hope that whenever that i am at work, i can do my job 100% perfect.. ironically, it doesn't always hit that %.
i have been thinking bout my life in the future..
what will i engage in..?????
what kind of career path that i will choose and what sort of women i wanted to be...????? how can i be what i wanted to be??? well, that is really a BIG question for me...
and that BIG answer...
i have not churn it out yet..
need lots of time to think bout it ...
guess this is life...
:)
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