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to the chronicles of event that happened in my life
filled with challenges
filled with suprises
filled with expectations
filled with fantasies
Labels: indulgence
Malaysia Travel Fair in Suntec Labels: holiday, indulgence
good bargain: 1
hotel in Mallaca @ $40 per room per night which include 2 buffet breakfast, complimentary shuttle bus to city daily and pick up from bus station to the hotel was included as well~~booked 3 days 2 night
good bargain: 2
Theme Park hotel @ $52 per room per night: include 2 buffet breakfast and 2 outdoor theme park ticket~~booked 2 days 1 night
i have a patient who was very sick on the 2nd post operative day after her heart surgery a few days earlier
her condition started to worsen and eventually,
the surgeon prepare the parent and relatives for the worst
i did my 1st last office today.
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her parent and all her relatives came to see her knowing that we will pull out all her life support today
discussion was done yesterday about giving the patient another 24 hours to fight for herself
if her condition did not get better,
we have to let go..
parent agreed after a long struggle to accept their chíld's condition
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it was a distressed and heartbroken moment
this is my 1st time encountering this kind of situation
her parent and relatives were mournful
all i can do is to clean the child and tie her hair
try to give the child the best look before we send the child in a parent room for the parent to have some time with the child prior to sending the child down to the mortuary
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i do not know how to describe my feelings
there were a number of times that i have to swallow my own tears
i reminded myself that as a professional, i cannot be too emotional
i need to be there as a support but not to remind the parent how tragic it was
i gave a light pat to her aunty who sat in front of the cubicle while we were cleaning the child
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hope they will get over it soon...
god bless....
*last office is a preparation that needed to be done before sending a patient to mortuary
Labels: thought
or a relief for some patient and their family??
something that everyone fear??
but the fact is, it is a journey where everybody needed to go thru..
i once saw an interview with the member of S.H.E
when the host of the programme ask them where would they like to visit to the imposibble,
Hebe answered, "given a chance, i would like to visit both heaven and hell.i wanted to know how scary the hell look like or how holy the heaven feel like, i wanted to make sure i know about the road to reincarnation. which door will i need to choose in order to meet 'moong poh' and drink her tea to "wash up"all my previous life's memory......
well, i am surprised with her answer
i did not hav a thought about the life after death yet
all i think was the "moment"if i know it is near
how to prepare myself and everyone for it
but i never thought about the life after death
hmmn...
mayb it is a point to ponder??
Labels: challenges, work
i hav to go thru an intensive orientation which lasted for a month
sitting in front of the nursing counter
going thru policy and procedure today with my nurse clinician:
our normal routine after lunch...
but the special topic today is death procedure..
being very patient with me,
my nurse clinician go thru every form tat needed to be filled up,
every colors cards function,
and a lot more....
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a while later
we heard some feedback...
apparently, one of our very critically ill patient's father overheard our conversation..
and commented that we have written his daughter's death certificate..
OMG!!!
that feedback really alarmed my nurse clinician and me
after knowing that the her teaching stirred up such a big misunderstanding,
my nurse clinician explained to one of his relative about the teaching session and we were definitely not getting prepared for his daughter's what-so-ever...
i dunno what is the outcome but i really hope that he will not continue his misunderstanding
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well, we understand that sometimes, people are under a lot of stress and things might get a bit sensitive
just to clarify,
we will NOT prepare in advance for any death cos we will not let go till the last minute
as a professional, we work professionally
we try to give the best treatment to our patient as ordered by our physician
:)
so.... GO GO GO for it!! *how i wish for this kinda chance..* so since now u hav it, dun waste it k... since now u have consulted your family, your bf and your best best buddy, hope you are convinced and grab this good opportunity!!! all the best to you... Labels: my opinion
Labels: challenges, frenship
your patience in the ward and forever smilling face lighten my days in the ward when the workload is burying me alive
working with you gave me opportunity to relax and gossips in between the stressful moment in ward
i was only 2 weeks old in ICU and i am missing you already
i miss your energetic glow, your kind remarks, your gentle thank Qsss and much much more
of cos i remember all the good times we had had
hope that we can meet up soon for the missing parts of our ward after i have left..
i believe there will be a lot to for us catch up
to confirm the difference in size...
if there is an increase in size,
then proceed ultrasound guided fine needle aspiration,
if no increase in size, then let it be...
cos multinodular goiter is quite common
as long as no clinical indication,
there is nothing to worry about..
*fUuH*
received a call from my fren yesterday... Labels: emotions, indulgence
hey! let's got to John Little Sale in Expo!!
why not?? since i am not working tomorrow
and i have grounded myself long enough lately,
so i say yes yes yes....
i met her in Expo about 1230pm
we charged to Hall 4 for the sale
at 1st, i do not know wat to buy
just looking around,
surveying some of the shoes
looking at some of the clothes
buying some snacks
grabbing a little of this and a little of that
the real spree started when we revisited the shoe section
shoe trying rally eventually began
my fren and i can't stop trying shoes of various sizes and designs
i have chosen 4 pairs of shoes initially and she choosed 5 pairs
lastly, we decided to abandon one and she bought 4 pairs
where as me, 3 pairs...
this is the 1st time that i bought so many shoes in a shopping splurge
really pampered myself this time..
went back home and 'model' all the shoes i bought to dear
he said i have good taste ler
he did not comment much when i showed him that i have different colors for one of the designs
in fact, he agreed that different colors have different 'feel'
haha!!
*feeling pampered, happy and contented!!*
being 'guided' to changi airport for our dinner today Labels: frenship, holiday, indulgence, thought
the special fastfood "popoyes chicken"
according to my friend,
only available in airport,
so we set off all the way to try this 'new' fastfood
result:
yummy yummy!!
cajun fries!! good!
fried chicken!! not bad!!
toast/ fried bun!! love it!!
seafood basket!! so-so..
but overall rating: 7/10
after we gobbled down all the food
3 of us sat for hours chatting and updating each other
this is what happen when we did not meet for a long time
haha
went round airport veiwing hall
looking at different planes boarding and disembarking
thinking of
"hmm, how long will i need to wait for another vacation?"
*shrug shrug*
thought of updating my friends bout my ultrasound result Labels: frenship
but do not know how to start
i saw them in msn and i deliver the news one by one
they are very disturbed and concerned
*well,thank you for all your concern
please do not be anxious
the purpose of updating is just for your info
not for you all of you to get distressed..*
i am a healthcare personnel
i am positive enough to think that it is all right
i am prepared for the review
and i will keep you all updated
cheers...
Labels: challenges, emotions, life, thought, work
i saw a post open heart operation patient
the baby is very small
his heart is totally visualizable thru the transparent plastic that is protecting his heart from the external enviroment
his heart is pumping hard
at that moment
i feel that life is really fragile
especially for this tiny weeny baby
but he work hard in order to survive
he will be having his heart closure soon
he can make it!!
:)
footnote:
got a call from my ex-nursing manager
asking how am i doing in ICU
i told her i am fine and i saw a lot of different things in ICU
finally, she told me the main purpose she called me
she ask me bout the follow up in SGH
apparently, she got some info that i will be going for surgery
well, i reassured her that it will be only a review
i might need a fine needle aspiration but it is not confirm yet
she said to keep her updated...
*i am touched!!*
excuse myself and went down to register
clerk said have wait for at least half an hour
so i went back to the ward and continue my orientation with my NC
she stopped half way to release me for lunch
i was called to go down for the ultrasound in the middle of my lunch
the radiographer asked where is the lump and i pointed it to her
she took about 30 mins for the whole ultrasound to be done
she said she saw the lump, and the full report will be out in an hour
so i went down for DR's apppointment at 2PM
i was told....
well, from the scan we know that the lump you feel is a cyst in your left thyroid
we are not very worried about the cyst...
but in your right thyroid,
there are another two solid mass...
smaller than the one that you hav in your left thyroid
i will refer you to a head and neck surgeon in SGH
i will let him to check your solid mass and let him decide whether he wanna do a fine needle aspiration for you to check out the content of the mass
but sometimes it is very difficult to aspirate cause the mass is too small
nevermind, let him have a look and let him plan the next step
i will keep an open follow up with you if you need anything..
next appointment fixed:
10/4/07 9AM
Prof Chris Goh, SGH..
went home,
update my family bout my follow up
:)
Labels: challenges, work
1st day in icu was tiring, boring but exciting as well Labels: challenges, emotions, life, thought, work
Tiring… as in trying to keep my eyelid open when my NC explain as needed for my orientation check list
Boring as in I can’t hands on yet because I am as fresh as a fish swimming happily in the pond, all I could do is just observing, observing and observing
Exciting cause I saw an open heart closure today in icu cubicle itself..
The very same and very sick baby needed 2-3 SSN to handle once she is out from OT.
I saw how havoc it is when all her tubings was disconnected and the SSN have to figure which is which..
Sometimes, I am already confused with 2 accesses and 6 tubings that Ryan or Miss Tan had but the child have like 4 accesses and more than 10 over tubings connecting to pumps and running some drugs and 4 chest tubes, all actively draining hemoserous fluid.
Every drop of blood and difference in temperature do make a different for the child. I saw and observe with my mouth big open and my ever alert eyes. THAT was interesting!
I was wondering when will I have a chance to nurse this category of patient, but I know I have to wait for at least 2-3 years in order to lay my hands on her which I do not know whether at the end of the day, I will have that much time or not.
Am I hesitating??
Well, I really do not know…
gemini
chatty, friendly, emotional
* Loves *chocolate, musics, friends, travelling
most of all:enjoy life
* Hates *cowards, creepy-crawlers
* Wishlist *i wish for a never-have-to-pay-back credit card!