* Welcome *
to the chronicles of event that happened in my life
filled with challenges
filled with suprises
filled with expectations
filled with fantasies
to the chronicles of event that happened in my life
filled with challenges
filled with suprises
filled with expectations
filled with fantasies
today Labels: work
my 2nd night duty
i was assigned to hi-dependency ward yesterday night
very busy with routine work
somehow, i survive
but i think i really wanna salute myself for surviving tonight as well
i have 2 patient
for the whole shift,
i am running like a mad person
taking care of this two patient
think it is too much for me to cope sometimes
drugs
puffs
physiotherapy
suctioning
feeding
changing diapers
turning
observing vital signs
lucky enough i hav 2 colleague to help me pull thru
or else,
think i really will break down and cry
when i pass my report to my colleague in the morning
i wish her *luck*
Labels: frenship
requested for off day but not granted
din tell manager tat it is my birthday
nevermind
just work
it wun be so special anyway
live still hav to go on eventhou today is my birthday
go to work like usual
in my heart..
damn tired cos only hav one sleeping day after my tired tired day night night duty
but no choice...
still hav to work
saw the assigment
2 patients!!
and one of the patient suddenly turned bad
they are inserting every single line they can
central venous line
intravenous plus
dialysis catheter
ordering insulin
fetching fresh frozen plasma
4 units of platlet
packed cells
searching for pumps
doing blood gases nearly every 40 mins
i dun hav time to stop and think
cos the doctor is ordering drugs like every 10 mins
searching for drug, diluting and putting it up....
so busy till manager hav to assignment my another patient to another staff
but somehow, i survived that day duty
hopefully the child will survived as well
cos she is really sick
then
luckily dear dear come to fetch me
without fail,
he got me a soya beans with blackie chewy pearls
yummy yummy
and sunflowers!!!!
WOW..
thank you dear for the soya bean milk
the flower and the dinner
when i saw the bouquet of flower
i hav forgotten how miserable i am in the morning resuscitating the child
my stress and tiredness just disappear.....
hahah
magical sunflower i name it...
tat day
i finally tell her about him
she listened to me carefully
in a way
she was shocked to find out the truth
cos she never notice
she never know about it
anyway
in fact
not many people know bout it
if she did not come over to my house tat day
for an-overnight-heart-to-heart-talking-session
dun think so i will tell her tat much
she told me
i am surprised
but nonetheless
i wish u all the best
and
i really hope that the special relationship will sustain
in my heart, i told myself
well
i still can envision
that
both,
his child and my child
will be good friends
just like us!
:)
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
however,
i am doubtful now
the last time i went back to kl
i can feel his hesistency to share
i can feel his tiredness
i know he is strained
but he did not tell me anything
is he isolating himself?
or our distance have grew so far tat he can't confide in me anymore?
is he shouldering everything he hav in mind alone?
or maybe
i should say
the belief of
US
having married-with -kids-gathering-session in the future will be shattered?
i really do not know
************
i am just concerned
whenever i wanted to have a conversation with him
he sounds like that i am forcing him to talk to me
he will end up......
speechless
*shrug shrug*
i was used to being companied when i was on my way home
either dear dear will be fetching me after my work and we will walk the 20mins-long-distance-walk to my house
or
i will call whoever that sms me or i think of that day to chat and catch up
somehow or rather, today dear dear did not come and fetch me
and
i dun feel like talking to anybody
so
i walked home alone
i have done that before
but
in my mind,
i will always tell myself
'i will be reaching home soon, jia you'
or
'the bed in the room is waiting for you,
quick, go home and jump on it :)'
today..
my mind was blank
i do not know y
but i noticed that
i used up more strength to walk
my house seems to be longer in distance
and i really dragged myself back to my house
then, i understand
the different between walking alone and walking with somebody no matter the person is physically, emotional or spiritually accompanying me
***************
in life
we have different roads to walk
different destinations and goals
somehow or rather,
we might meet in a junction of life
we will say hi and walk off
or
we will stop and chat
or
we will exchange numbers and forget about it
or
we might just ignore each other and continue walking
or
we might, from a segregate becomes best friend!
well
we do not know what will happen
but i really feels that
in life
we need to share
no matter happiness
or
sorrowness
or
disappointment
or
................
open up and we will support each other
:)
hav been travelling a lot lately Labels: family
just back from johor
celebrating his grandma's 80th birthday
i am tired
from sgp to muar
from muar to batu pahat
from batu pahat to muar
then from muar to batu pahat again
then from batu pahat finally back to sgp
thanks to our driver
his brother and his brother's gf
xin ku le
gemini
chatty, friendly, emotional
* Loves *chocolate, musics, friends, travelling
most of all:enjoy life
* Hates *cowards, creepy-crawlers
* Wishlist *i wish for a never-have-to-pay-back credit card!