* Welcome *
to the chronicles of event that happened in my life
filled with challenges
filled with suprises
filled with expectations
filled with fantasies
to the chronicles of event that happened in my life
filled with challenges
filled with suprises
filled with expectations
filled with fantasies
i dunno y i felt this way..
i dunno y i can be so happy in a minute and depress in another minute
i dunno y i keep making mistake in my working place
i dunno y i felt so bad today
i dunno y i can't sleep after my night duty eventhou i am drop dead tired
i dunno y my mind can't rest eventhou my body is so tired
i dunno y i kept thinking bout my ward eventhou i am off duty
i dunno y i can't be a perfect worker like some of my seniors
i really dunno y...
i dunno how to work flawlessly
i dunno how to decrease my mistakes
i dunno how to make myself relax after work
i dunno how to make myself happy
i dunno how to face my mistakes
i dunno how to forgive myself
i dunno how to live to be a happy and contented person
i really dunno how.....
8 months +
temperature: 37.8-39.8 celcius
hrt rate: 160-220
resp rate: 40-60
oxygen level in the peripheral: 98-100%
morning review:
suppository voltaren
intravenous infusion bolus-large amount of fluid to run fast
sponging to lower down the fever
intravenous maintainence drip-small aount of fluid to run slow
evening review:
continue management
proffesor review at 7 pm:
examine examine examine
send to hi-dependency ward
review again by senior doctor:
send to intensive careunit..
eventful day
busy day
scary day
in case i need a code activation(resuscitation)
i know the patient is ill
tot only a hi-dependency status
never tot of actually it is an intensive careunit case..
sigh..
should be more insisting next time..
drop dead tired!!
monday morning is boring and unlucky
according to garfield!!
less than i have imagine
a gathering with 2 of my buddies will end up
5 cars + 1 motorcycle
dinner for 5
(thanks for my father intelligence, whipping up a dinner for extra 5 in such a short notice)
9 buddies gathering
birthday celebration for 4
2 cakes
1 bottle of red wine
and a bonus singapore trip...
have u ever had a moment where u needed help so badly
u can't cope anymore?
but somehow or rather, u just can't seem to have the heart to ask for help
u know, i need people to be automatic
i do not want to ask for help
or mayb i should say, begging for help..
i will perceive begging for help as losing my pride,
or mayb a way to show tat i am incompetence
i do not know y i feel it this way but this is wat i had in mind at that very moment.
sigh..
i was so so so busy
i nearly feel like crying...
i wanted to divide myself into small little pieces so tat i can get my job done..
i wonder how long more can i work in this kinda environment.
the management people is crazy..
to make us work like hell..
now: going to work = hell...
gemini
chatty, friendly, emotional
* Loves *chocolate, musics, friends, travelling
most of all:enjoy life
* Hates *cowards, creepy-crawlers
* Wishlist *i wish for a never-have-to-pay-back credit card!