* Welcome *
to the chronicles of event that happened in my life
filled with challenges
filled with suprises
filled with expectations
filled with fantasies
to the chronicles of event that happened in my life
filled with challenges
filled with suprises
filled with expectations
filled with fantasies
u hav been a good girl so far Labels: life
sometimes, your mother do create lots of troubles
but we know that it is not ur fault
we nursed u with our hearts
you are a very cooperative girl
i still remember when u were in 75
the day u r so ill
i was nursing u on night shift
i was giving puffs to you
you hav beena good girl listening to me
evethou you were breathless that time
but u tried your best to finish all the medications
you try to help me nursing you
then, u were not very stable
in and out of icu and Hi-D
finally, ur sufferings end
hope you are in a better place
and
be a good girl k
:)
it was short but sweet Labels: family, frenship, holiday, indulgence
SATURDAY:
early morning: reach kl
morning: had b/fast with family
porridge and mee goreng
yummy yummy!!
noon: visited my cousin brother in hospital
he look much more better tat day according to my sister
evening: dinner with my family
my fav restaurant
never disappoint me
deeeee--li--cious----
SUNDAY:
meet up my KB frens
had a good time
we chat
we eat
we talk
we sing
we celebrated our frens birthdays
we snapped photo
we played uno stacks
we played IQ games
we enjoyed ourselves
very very much!!
*bonus*: BBQ on tuesday
MONDAY:
enjoying my day
with family
lazing around
preparing for the BBQ
TUESDAY:
busy busy busy
marketing
preparing
setting up
washing
finally it was dinner time
succesful BBQ i must say
luckily not much things left
just 3 small containers of leftover
finished it up the next day!!
WED & THURSDAY
genting day
went there
rest and relax
with dear dear
eat our heart out
play till we are so tired
and enjoyed ourselves
nite: visited my uncle
with dear dear
explaination about dialysis given
FRIDAY
goin back time
pack pack
and off we go to singapore with my brother
finally have chance to take case in icu Labels: challenges, work
full case as in yesterday transfer in by CHETS
today, my shift going for scan
1st time preparing pt for scan
it is different in general ward cos
in general ward, we dun hav to accompany pt
we dun hav to manipulate their monitors cos there was none
but in ICU,
manipulating and preparing
oxygen tank, monitors,pumps is an issue
patient airway, breathing and circulation is another important aspect
i learnt how to deal with it
then..
after the scan,
i hav to prepare patient for op
another learning opportunity
this time, all by myself
without any help cos everybody is busy
i manage..
but after that,
i got feedback from my nurse clinician
"carmen, u r still not familiar yet
you need to buck up you know
you are a bit slow already"
*gulp*
i hav tried my best,
but if this is the feedback she gave me
then no choice la
have to jia you some more liao...
:)
CHETS stand for Labels: challenges
Children Hospital Emergency Transport System
did not check my assigment today before hand
came for duty
received report from the morning staff
'you have to send this patient to SGH.
ward##room##bed##
transport will arrive with trolley @ 1445hrs
doctors still typing the discharge summary
........................................'
*panic*
did not do any tramsfer before
dunno wat to prepare
dunno wat to bring
dunno where is the ward
but luckily.....
i hav a senior with me
she guide me along the way
no doubt, alot of things was not prepared yet
but we manage to send the patient uneventfuly
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
but just a minute before we leave him
he ask us to bring him along
to the lift..
he wanted to follow us back to ICU
he was not very comfrotable in the new environment
but we hav no choice but to convince him
our doctor talked to him
i try to convinced him as well
my senior staff dun bear to face him
at last,
after 15 mins of conversation between his mom. dad, our doctor, me and my senior staff,
he finally say good bye and wave his hand at us.....
:(
i was on duty today
in fact,
i am on duty everyday for the past 5 days
and my assignment is not in ICU
but in children step down unit
they are not as ill
just normal general patient with heart problem
ocassional desaturated, but generally stable
so i din learn much this few days
just doing some routine work tat i hav already know
but today is a special day
it is mother's day
well, my mother pass away long long time ago
when i am 3 years plus
so i genereally do not hav any memory re: my mother
some memories that i remember might not be real memories if u know wat i mean
it might be from dreams or imagination
well, i am not sure which is which..
there is a long term patient that u nursed today
he hav been here since he was born
becos of multiple congenital heart problem
he was not fit for discharge and family's not confident enuv to manage him at home with the frequent suctioning and oxygen therapy
early in the morning,
both the parent came to see him
i went in the room to feed the patient after they had left
on top of the cupboard, i saw an open card..
it was written by his father
it sound like this
"mummy, happy mother's day,
i ask daddy to write you this card
as i was too young to do so
i know you loves me very much
you must be very patient
i will get better one day
GOD visited me everyday
He tells me He loves me very much
He have plans for me
so mummy, you dun have to worry about me
i promise you, i will grow up to be a good boy
i....................................."
i saw the card
i felt the tears at the back of my throat
i forced myself to swallowed it
i...............................
finally, Labels: challenges, emotions, life, thought
u let go
after so much of suffering
after so much of tears
after so much of bleeding
after your family struggled to accept it
it is time for you to go
go to a better place for you
no more suffering,
no more pain,
no more worries,
~~~~~~~~~~~~
i am sorry i was not there at that moment
it was my day off
mayb you choose to leave when i am not around
so that i dun hav to face your family
cos i really dunno how to respond to them
especially your mummy and nanny
your stay in hospital make me make frens with them
make me understand them and knowing you a lot better
i am afraid that i can't face it
~~~~~~~~~~~~
thanks for being so understanding
nonetheless,
hope you will rest in peace
Labels: thought
gemini
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* Loves *chocolate, musics, friends, travelling
most of all:enjoy life
* Hates *cowards, creepy-crawlers
* Wishlist *i wish for a never-have-to-pay-back credit card!