when i was depressed in my yr 2 of my diploma studies,
you are the one who pulled me out from my depression
you are the one who introduced me to a lot of frens,
teaching me to face other people and stopped me from isolating myself
you gave me the strength to face my insufficiency
you gave me advices when i am stucked in life
you were there when i need a shoulder to lean on
you were there when i feel so lonely and needed somebody to be with me
you were there when i am so stress up with my work and studies
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today,
after 3 years of not contacting each other or not having a heart to heart talk
we met!
we met in outram park MRT
i was late..
i am sorry..
when i reached, i saw you sitting there reading the newspaper when you are waiting for me
i walked towards you..
you saw me and the 1st thing u say was
"wow, u gained weight!!"
hehe..
in fact, i am...
i do not mind..
it is the fact indeed...
:)
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then we proceed to marina square for dinner at genki sushi
when we were having our dinner,
you told me that you are tired with your life
you have no appetite to eat since 3 years ago
you told me you need a rest
you told me you cried so many times for the past 3 years..
you are stressed with work
you are unhappy with your own performances
you longed for the carefreee days during our poly times..
you missed the time when we went to the beach for a walk
or mayb the time when we travelled all the way to pulau ubin for a cycling exercise
or u could mean the time when we talk to each other near the staircase beside our lecture hall
and when u think that you are so lonely now,
u think that u do not know your direction in life
u think that u r not satisfied with your choice and...
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i ask you to close your eyes..
do some deep breathing..
and count your blessing..
i put a handmade black rubber bracelet on your hand
i have made it with a wooden piece 3 years ago
a wooden piece that have inflicted a lot of our memories
a wooden piece that i kept after repairing your broken bracelet that i gave you 4 years ago
i wanted to give the handmade bracelet and necklace to you 3 years ago
but i did not find a chance to do so
it might be due to our busy schedule
or mayb some misunderstandings between us.
that stopped us from seeing or meeting each other..
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well, that does not matter now
i am happy that you still remember me and call me out today
please do not feel guilty for the silence
i understand and please do not feel bad
i know that you are busy all this while
it is okay
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remember that i will always be with you..
no matter what....
i will support you and give you the reassurance
if you wanna cry,..
cry out loud.....
i will lend you my shoulder just like today....
you are not alone...
my fren,
i love you...
friendship forever!!
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